Last Week

There is difference between "frozen" and "drooping". The former being my term.  The right side of my face and  head was frozen for a long time. It was much like Botox, I am told, because it held the muscles still. It was probably swollen because I could do nothing about the peeling like a sunburn. Now my face really droops but I can move it around. I also realized that a massage chair is not good for me because my muscles in my head do not make my insides as still as they should be.

There is a small scar/incision on my belly from the fat they took to seal the cerebellum and replace the tumor in my skull. Believe me that the surgeons were not "plastic surgeons". Therefore, they did not make it the same on both sides. I am not complaining...just saying. I lost more weight from not eating and throwing up than my little transfer.

I can walk without assistance and only look somewhat like a toddler. But stairs and curbs are not my friends yet. I need assistance if not railings. I tried "running" bases when we went to the park Monday (Memorial Day) and played baseball as a family.  Christian could have beat me, and it took several tries before I could hit home plate with my foot, but I hit the ball all by myself several times. It was a small victory. :)

I am permanently deaf in my right ear, but that is the least of my problems. I don't notice much and the few times that I have I think "it would be more helpful if I could hear". Like when a child is whispering something, or I have to ask someone to repeat what they have said, or Pete sits on the wrong side at the movies.

Now summer is here I am excited and a little intimidated.  Syd and Lil have a designated day they are in charge of Christian. He is faster than me and he knows it.  He is still 3.